me info-dumping!!

꒷꒦︶꒷꒦︶ ๋ ࣭ ⭑꒷꒦

hi hi hello!! this page is mainly just gonna be me basically going into a long info-dumping type rant about myself and like anything that i think would count as important info!! >_< it's a continuation of sorts to my main carrd page! i also might update this in the future when i think of other things i wanna say!— ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ —first of all, my name is Eddie but you can also call me one of my nicknames! my favorite is Mouse but i also have River, Ethan, and Fever! i got the nickname Mouse in high school bc i was super quiet and shy, i got the nickname Fever bc i luv the Goosebumps books and one of my favorites is The Werewolf Of Fever Swamp so it just fits, Ethan is the name i went by from 14 to 17 but i still respond to it, i just see it more as a nickname now, and then EJ is my childhood nickname based on my initials but i don't like ppl who aren't family calling me that, and i dunno where River came from,,, (╥﹏╥)— ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ —i am obsessed with anything Sanrio!! my face wash is Hello Kitty, my setting spray is My Melody, my SOUL is Sanrio. my faves are Hello Kitty, Pompompurin, Cinnamoroll, Kuromi, My Melody, My Sweet Piano, Aggretsuko, and if it counts, Korilakkuma!— ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ —some of my interests: Michael Jackson (and no i do not believe the allegations against him- i'm always down to explain my stance but i am not open to arguing about it), Texas Chainsaw Massacre 1 and 2, Salad Fingers, Shaye Saint John, Brandon Rogers, Gorillaz, Creepypasta, Marble Hornets, Aaahh!!! Real Monsters, M3GAN, The Outsiders, The Powerpuff Girls, old internet horror and ARGs, Invader Zim, Johnny The Homicidal Maniac, Death Note, Doki Doki Literature Club, Fran Bow, Bluey, Gravity Falls, Smiling Friends, Alien, Predator, Pulp Fiction, Inside Job, and unfortunately, Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss (no, i don't think they're good shows, nor do i support the creator, but i do have a bit of an attachment to the characters since i got rlly into it when i was younger- i can and will rant 4ever abt those shows tho!! i'm a fan AND a hater!— ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ —my gender identity!! that's a good topic!! i kinda go back and forth between calling myself ftm (female to male), demiboy (somewhere between male and nonbinary), and boyflux (male but fluctuating in intensity). i prefer he/him pronouns as well as masculine terms (sir, mister, etc.) but clearly, i don't care too much abt the concept of "passing" dfghjg-i do present very feminine admittedly and i know not every1 is gonna look at me and just think "dude" so i don't get upset when someone uses an incorrect term or pronoun for me out of genuinely not knowing. and as far as transitioning, i plan to one day get top surgery, but i don't care so much abt HRT. the way i see it is that i know im a guy and other ppl's perception of me won't change who i know i am!that's not to invalidate trans ppl who do care abt passing tho!! yea, i think it's sad to try and pass just to be "one of the good ones" or to make urself more palatable to transphobes, but obviously there is nothing wrong with wanting to pass for personal reasons!! there's no wrong way to be trans! it can be different for different ppl! if going by a certain term or name or pronoun makes u feel more comfortable, that is valid, regardless of how u dress or act or what surgeries u want or don't want or whether u have gender dysphoria or not!!— ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ —i love Crystal Castles, MCR, Pierce The Veil, Penelope Scott, Mitski, Michael Jackson, Gorillaz, Slipknot, Korn, Jazmin Bean, Poppy, KMFDM, Pastel Ghost, Rebzyyx, Baby Bugs, The Offspring, The Chemical Brothers, Alice In Chains, Deftones, Britney Spears, Mother Mother, Alex G, 100 Gecs, and Ayesha Erotica! my current favorite song is either Dreamcore by Pathetic or Dark Beach by Pastel Ghost!i think all music is good tho! it's a subjective thing! even if i rlly hate a certain artist, i wouldn't be pretentious and try and say i have "better" music taste than another person bc that's subjective!— ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ —some fun facts abt me!! i collect can tabs and stuffed animals, i luv journaling and scrapbooking, and i rlly luv 2 sing!!— ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ —my bay is december 17, 2003, making me a sagittarius, but im not too big on astrology and idk what that would mean abt me!— ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ —i luv luv luv going places with ppl!!! even places that r small or "lame" i still luv it!! i luv grocery store/ gas station runs with friends a lot!— ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ —i've been diagnosed with autism, ADHD, generalized anxiety disorder, major depressive disorder, and POTS!— ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ —i deal with age regression, which is something i've written about here in case u don't know what it is!! i'm not gonna get too into detail but i was in a very bad relationship when i was 17-18 and now sometimes i subconsciously regress to that age. some of the pictures of me in my photo album show me in a wig. that's the wig i wear when i'm in that headspace bc it makes me feel more like how i looked at that time!although to be fair i am still very similar to how i was at that time so i doubt that another person looking in would notice! (hence why i didn't realize i was dealing with this for a while!)i also sometimes deal with the kind of regression where i'm regressed to a child or toddler age but it really doesn't happen that often and when i feel it start 2 happen, i do everything 2 STOP it from happening until i can be alone. ur most likely never gonna talk 2 me when im in that headspace. it is very vulnerable and ive had ppl break my trust with that before and i am NOT letting it happen again.— ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ —i'm somewhere on the spectrum of asexuality! i wont get too detailed bc it is very personal but i'll say i don't know for sure where i stand on that spectrum!— ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ —i dunno how 2 describe my style. normally when ppl ask, i just say, "i dunno. it's just me" but 4 the sake of this carrd, i'll try 2 sum it up!i'd say it's very inspired by cutecore/ kawaiicore, cutegore/ kawaiigore (in the "i love the mix of pastel and dark things" way, not the "actual pictures of gore or romanticizing poor mental health" way), morute, creepy cute, yamikawaii/ menhera kei, 2020 alt, emo, both scene AND scenecore, early jazmin bean pastel goth, bunny hat alt, old internet horror, sanrio dreamcore, and whatever kind of grunge this is!— ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ —that's all i can think 2 say rn!! i'll definitely update this page if i think of anything else i want up here! tysm if u read all this!!! and i know i was rambling but i hope it was still coherent!! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡